I AM SO BUSY

I AM SO BUSY

Seriously though, this BSN thing is nuts. They have to keep reminding us that, yes, it is a college course, because we constantly have homework.

Let me back up.

This place is really nice. We're in the middle of a bunch of farmland about 20 minutes outside of Madison at the TC (Training Center...YWAM loves their acronyms), and while it is beautiful and relaxing, it also makes me feel very isolated, especially in comparison to my DTS. In San Francisco, I was in the heart of the city. It was impossible to get away from people. Here? The only people are the people I live with, and if I need to get away, I have headphones and a big backyard with a nice swing.

The city of Madison is gorgeous. I've gone in a few times now. The first full day here, the Saturday before Easter, we all bused in to town to do a bit of a photo scavenger hunt and to see the YWAM Madison downtown base (they have an acronym for that too, but I can't remember what it is). I also went downtown to State Street, which is between the UW campus and the capitol, to watch the NCAA championship match. It was raining and the streets were packed with drunk college students. It was a wild night right up until the saddening end (GO BADGERS!).

But about the school: We will be going through the whole Bible once in 4 months. However, the first week of teaching was all about worldviews. We learned about the lenses with which people (including ourselves) see everything in life, and how those can affect, specifically, their understanding or approach to the Bible. This week is all about exegesis and hermeneutics, e.i. how to study the Bible in it's original context and then how to apply what we learn from that to our lives in modern times.

When I said I was SO BUSY, it was because I had just gotten assigned a word study on Timothy and Ephesus. So all last evening I was using a concordance to find and list every time Timothy is mentioned in the Bible (far more than I thought) and any time the city of Ephesus or the Ephesians are mentioned. The goal was to get a better understanding of Paul and Timothy's relationship, and since 1 and 2 Timothy are addressed to Timothy while he's in Ephesus, we also wanted to learn about the state of the church there.

It took awhile.

We've been told to expect at least 3 hours of homework due the next day each night, with week long assignments that will take a bit longer. After this week, we'll be going chronologically through the whole Bible. I'm a little apprehensive, but extremely excited.

Prayers for focus and self control would be greatly appreciated. This is my very first college level course (not counting Psych 101 and American History 101 my senior year of high school, which were pretty easy), and if I'm honest with myself I never developed a great work ethic high school. I have a hard time sitting for hours at a time pouring over one topic. As much as this will be a time of gaining knowledge, it will also, hopefully, be a time of character building.

Well, I should go now. We have a relatively light workload tonight - we are trying to find a one sentence summary of the purpose Paul had for writing 1 Timothy, and then finding half a dozen major points and summarizing how they relate to said purpose - and I want to take advantage of that by getting it out of the way now so I can relax and socialize a bit after dinner. My guess is it'll only take me a little over and hour.

As always, please share this link and the link to my GoFundMe (on the left side of the page!). Outreach locations won't be decided for awhile, so I'm not sure exactly how much I'll need, but I'd guess at least a thousand more dollars, especially when I have to find plane tickets.

The focus is still on The DR Congo and Tanzania (we have two students and one staff from Tanzania who want to start up a BSN in their country when they finish this school!), but because we have so many people, Uganda is another place I heard we might be going. I will update on here the moment I find out where I'm going!

Okay, that seems like a pretty good first update! Thank you all so much for your interest and support!

God's Blessings,
Chris

Just To Clarify...

So I'm not going to beat around the bush, as some of you have already heard about this and the rest should just hear it from him: Mark has left the BSN. He went home late on Easter night, and so I asked him to write something about it so I didn't have to run the risk of misrepresenting the situation.

Without further ado...

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In the past few months I had been gearing up to do the YWAM Madison BSN I do feel that I was led there and I know God had things to reveal to me in that time I was there. When I arrived I felt that something was wrong, I didn't just feel it I experienced it.

I felt as if I wasn't wholly there. I was afraid to admit to myself that I wasn't sure if I was supposed to be there anymore. So I began to seek God and find what else he had for me, he pointed back home and at this point I came to a cross roads.

On looking back home I saw my relationship with my girlfriend, a relationship I believe has been set by the Lord. I saw my current situation in the BSN not as a danger to my relationship but more as a hindrance. God gave us each other to peruse Him more powerfully and to minister to those around us in a more complete picture of who Christ is.

I believe I didn't feel complete because although I can grow in Christ alone I also had the opportunity to grow together. Put extremely simply it was up to me what I would do with God. Grow with Him in the BSN and get everything he had for me there or return and nurture my relationship with my future wife. He wanted me to prioritize and fully follow whichever path I chose, both with trials and rewards. So I chose togetherness over self-development.

I think all too often we as Christians seek for some sort of voice from heaven to tell us exactly what to do next and although there’s nothing exactly wrong with that it can breed uncertainty and it’s easier to worship the plan rather than the planner. I think Christ gives us free range to pursue things we love and he blesses our actions and our boldness.

Even if we make the wrong choice Christ doesn't abandon us. Even when Adam and Eve sinned Christ did not immediately destroy them, he picked them up, clothed them, blessed them with children, and long life. As I had said before Christ had things to show me at the BSN, and to be completely honest I don’t know if I did the right thing or not. However, I am confident in the goodness of Christ, and I just have to trust that in my efforts to follow His will He will continue to reveal Himself to me and bless me with a deeper understanding of His word.

I am also genuinely sorry for any confusion about what I’m doing. I’m acutely aware that I do not live in a vacuum and whatever I do will affect others. I pray that any trust that has been broken down in me or Christ can be rebuilt over time. Thank you all so much for the support and prayers in this confusing time.

- Mark

And We're Off!

In less then an hour Mark and I will be one our way to Madison, er, Columbus (the location was changed because the Madison facilities didn't have enough room for all the students!) Wisconsin.

Instead of written updates, Mark and I are planning on doing video updates. I wish I could say they'll be weekly, but I don't trust either of us to be that on point with our scheduling, especially at the beginning. I'll be posting the videos on my YouTube channel and linking them here, and then putting this blog link on Facebook.

PLEASE be praying for us on this trip, but especially this weekend as we are adjusting to a whole new group of people and as we are away from our family's for Holy Week (again). I don't know where Mark was last Easter, but he was either in England or Amsterdam, and I was in Rome.

Anyway, I have to go over my packing list one last time and then my dad and I are off to pick up Mark and his father for a double father/son road trip!

Thanks so much to everyone who has supported us thus far with finances and prayer. Please remember to share the link to our GoFundMe, which is on the left side of this page.

Thanks again.

And again.

I'm gonna go now...

God's Blessings,
Chris